Thinking about the time I learned every aspect of the Mayan calendar through the teachings of The Dreamspell and was totally signed up.
Would look up your chart, tell you who your friends should be and what your magic powers were.
Then I found out they had moved the calendar.
The guy Aguelles who “translated” the whole thing also shifted it so his birthday was on a special day that meant he was a prophet. The Mayans still have their calendar and it’s not the same day.
The cognitive dissonance 😗🤌
I tried to hang on for a while, tried to rationalize it one was the left hand path of your astrological destiny and the other was the right. But ultimately it all fell apart. I was seeing too many contradictory pieces of evidence. I could feel the apophenia and it broke the spell.
Once I didn’t believe in the dream spell calendar, the Mayan calendar also didn’t seem mystically meaningful. It all just seemed like an illusion that I was casting on my own mind.
And other stories in my mind that I thought were part of a coherent worldview started to unravel.
I was actually pretty into the 2012 end of the world narrative and the Timewave Zero stuff from Terence McKenna and all that. It seemed about as real as the global financial system at the time and it was more fun to believe in.
But it started to seem unlikely after that.
I also started to see evidence that I had been ignoring, like the fact that José Argüelles organized the 1987 Harmonic Convergence which was also supposed to shift us to a new cycle of the world if we could all gather together and focus our prayers.
No, it was shortly before this that I was disillusioned. Probably 2009? So I had a while to acquire new brain worms before 2012 happened.
Incredibly, my life has been massively different ever since December of 2012 but I believe that’s because of choices.